So I suddenly got this heavy gut feeling, I feel like I'm gonna puke, and I feel kinda dizzy.
It feels so weird and I don't know why it's happening XD
Anyway, it's exam time in about 4 days, I'll write my 4 exams and then it's summer vacation,
I gotta say, Grade 11 was definitely the most I've worked in school,
it's not that anything was overly difficult or hard to understand but there was just a lot of assignments and tests and homework,
but it was good, I enjoyed Grade 11 for the most part.
I'm not overly stressed for exams either, I was never the one to get stressed over things like this,
all I can do is study and do my best to prepare and whatever mark comes out of that I'll be happy with.
Besides it doesn't overly matter if I do bad on my exam because even if I get a 0 on all my exams, I'll still pass all my courses
Although I'll definitely still study and try my best because I want a good grade XD
Anyway, I have a few photos that I might upload on the weekend,
if not on the weekend, I'll do it after exams
It's been so rainy here so there were very few times where I could go and out and shoot.
OH! Speaking of which,
I wanted to tell you guys that my neighbor actually hired me to take family pictures for her,
I think I did okay, I'm not used to taking pictures of people, and I have to edit them a little,
but other than that, I think they all turned out kinda good
So that was my first job as a photographer, and hopefully it won't be the last
I've also been thinking of where I'll go with photography, my neighbor asked me "So photography is definitely the way you'll go?"
And she seemed pretty confident that I'd say yes, and she was very surprised when I said no XD
I told her there's just not any real business in it and she told me that that shouldn't matter, and if it's what I love to do, I should go with it.
So I've been daydreaming about opening a shop in town, and putting my prints on the walls, and have a photo-developing service and/or a canvas making service where people can come in and print their own pictures or buy some of mine XD
Especially since this town is crap and the only photo developing shop here is at walmart and even then it's not very good, or not even open half the time XD
That would be my dream job, but the chances of that actually happening are very slim, and if it is possible, it probably won't happen for a long time.
I mean, I know my mom wants me to go into sciences because it makes lots of money, but I don't care about money and I know she only wants the best for me but I don't think she knows how much I love photography.
I've never actually told her I really want to become a photographer, because I'll know she'll tell me to do it on the side and go into chemistry.
Maybe I should tell her how I feel, how whenever I look into other career choices I burst into tears, and how when I'm taking pictures, I feel free and peaceful, and how whenever people favorite or like my photos I feel like I've actually accomplished something, and how when I share my life and my pictures I feel so much more connected to people, and how whenever I upload pictures, everyone will have a different perspective on what my photos mean.
I love all of that, I love that people think I'm good at something.
Annnyywaayy, I think I'll go to bed, my lord it's already 1 in the morning XD
I love ya!